Hiya guys! Sorry I haven’t posted in a while! If you follow my Instagram (blondvegan_) or Facebook (ayse kayabasi) you’ll know it’s because I got a job doing what I love – Social Media! Blogging every damn day #FTW #SwanHappy! While this experience has been amazing and I have had some of the best moments and learnt some fantastic things in the past two weeks, they have also been difficult. Difficult mentally, of course.
A few weeks ago, I lost one of my most important friends. Things change. I told him absolutely everything about me that I only ever shared with my psychiatrist. This hurt a lot. Who was I to speak to now? But it was okay because I had my family surrounding me for support, new friends and of course, my psychiatrist to speak to about what is going through my head.
But Friday I received a letter in the post from my insurance company. They have covered me for four years with my mental health issues which has been amazing, especially these last two years. However, now they consider my illness to be chronic and that I am not going to get better so they won’t pay for my treatment any longer. This means, no more Jeremy. I cried and cried at this news. Although I am getting better and have some very good days, I feel i’d be completely lost without him. I am seeing him Monday to figure out the next steps, but just writing this is bringing tears to my eyes. He is the most amazing man I have ever met. He has helped me through the toughest fight of my life and he is the only person now that truly understands me, completely. What am I going to do without him? What am I going to do?
Reach for happiness.